Mixtape Love

Mixtape/mix cds/music playlists are an intensely personal thing for me because I'm such an audiophile. My music collection is widely varied because I enjoy having a soundtrack to my life. Just like in a movie or on a show, the right song at the right moment really captures the mood and defines the moment for me. The dick that I mentioned in my last blog happens to have a respectable music collection as well, but it isn't as impressive as mine. The only one-on-one conversation I ever had with him was about music, and during that conversation I vowed to change his mind about one band (he only had their first album, which was their worst album out of the three they put out). At the beginning of this week, I decided to make him listen to other songs that the band had recorded (I succeeded in changing his opinion of the band), and promised him that I'd let him copy that music from my computer. That was a promise that I almost revoked two days ago, but I figured that I'd be kind and still let him have the music. So, today I sat down and made a playlist of songs that he wants, songs that he'll probably want after hearing them, and songs that I'm thinking he'll want but I'm on the fence on. The total comes to 83 songs (a tiny portion of my overall collection, but it includes a lot of my current personal favorites), which made me realize how close our musical tastes are, something that has always made it easy to overlook personality flaws (my last ex was a complete jerk, but I fell in love with his music collection and he introduced me to one of my favorite bands, the Dresden Dolls). If he likes all of the music, then all i can say is thank God this clerkship is almost over, or I might have developed a crush on him. The timing is such that I can just give him the music and have him walk out of my life forever without falling for another asshole, something that I don't need to have happen to me.